8 years. I can't believe it's only been 8 years. It seems worlds apart! 8 years ago I was a depressed and broken little girl. I was lost. I was a freshman in college and felt all alone in the world. I went through a dark time and after 2 years of struggling I found the Light. With the support of my family and (some of my) friends I found my way back to the Lord. He was so patient with me and when I finally said "YES", He wrapped His loving arms around me and saved me. And I'm happy to say He hasn't let go since... & I haven't ran away from Him!
8 years ago I didn't want to live. Then I figured out the real way to live. I died to myself and am living for the Lord. I was depressed. Today with Jesus in my life, I am full of JOY and happiness. I felt all alone and today through God's grace I have a husband that loves me unconditionally and 2 beautiful healthy little girls that I get to call my daughters. I deserve nothing but that's the beauty of God's grace.
I hope the people that know me now see Jesus when they look at my life. I hope if they knew "my story" that they would be in disbelief of who I was and what I did, that they would think that couldn't have been me. My story is a powerful tool that can be used for God's Kingdom. I am ashamed of some of the things in my past but God's saving grace is nothing to be ashamed of, or to keep to myself. I am not a perfect person, but I am a forgiven person.
Go to YouTube look up Sanctus Real "Forgiven" It's such a beautiful song!
Well the past is playing with my head
And failure knocks me down again
I'm reminded of the wrong
That I have said and done
And that devil just wont let me forget
In this life
I know what I've been
But here in your arms
I know what I am
And I dont have to carry
The weight of who I've been
Cause I'm forgiven
My mistakes are running through my mind
And I'll relive my days, in the middle of the night
And I struggle with my pain, wrestle with my pride
Sometimes I feel alone, and I cry
When I don't fit in and I don't feel like I belong anywhere
When I don't measure up to much in this life
Oh, I'm a treasure in the arms of Christ ‘Cause
(back to chorus)
If you don't know Jesus or aren't living for Him. If you feel unworthy or undeserving. If you feel like what you have done you could never be forgiven. I'm living proof. God forgives. No matter our sin, with repentance we can be a forgiven person. Without Him I am nothing. With Him I am saved. PRAISE THE LORD! :) I love Him!