The sound of laughter drifted into my room as I sat on the floor with the door shut, trying to hide as the tears streamed down my face.
Once again I was in tears for no apparent reason. Why was I sad? Again.
I was sad because I was exhausted. Constant exhaustion plagued me. I was tired before I even got out of bed, tired all day long.
Crippled and unable to do anything.
Today it was time to change that.
I live with chronic depression and anxiety. I live in isolation. I live unable to fully smile, laugh, and find joy.
I've tried the whole fake it until you make it thing. But let me let you in on a little secret: It doesn't work.
I thought this was just the way it had to be. You know, suck it up buttercup.
I'm not content with "fine," though. My family deserves more. I deserve more.
I want more. And being unable to give more is so frustrating.
So, today I asked for help.
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