So lately I've been kinda struggling with "staying home." Not the staying home part, but with wondering if it's ok. Am I still contributing to my family? Or am I just being lazy not wanting to work? I know the correct answers to these but I worry. My whole life I've always said I would NOT be a stay at home mom. Too boring for me! and that I would have some great career doing I was never sure what but something. My mom always told me I was so smart and not to waste it. So I thought I should be a doctor or something. (too bad I don't like blood and illnesses).
Well I struggled through college trying to decide "what I wanted to be when I grew up." I didn't figure that out so I went to Bible college and still didn't know what I wanted to do! But I did find a great husband and I liked being a wife.
I have worked ever since I was 16 part time at a grocery store through high school and well just about any and everything you could think of the first 2 years of college. (I think I went through like 10 jobs! *note I never got fired.) And then a year into being married I got my first full time job at an insurance agency and then got my job at the hospital in 2008. A year ago I went part time again and worked 3 days a week. I LOVED it. I loved staying at home with my girls and having 4 day weekends. Then 2 months ago I went flex - and full time mommy. (I work like 2 days a month at the hospital.)
And WOW I absolutely LOVE it. God has transitioned me into this position.
But my struggle comes with Is it ok to stay home? Am I contributing to my family? Do I hold worth? Am I being lazy?
Like I say I know the answers to these but it is just a foreign thing to me. My mom and dad both worked so I thought that's what I would do. I have a bachelors degree and am still paying for it but I don't use it. Am I wasting my life?
I guess it'd be different if we couldn't pay our bills, or couldn't buy our necessities. But we are still able to live our comfortable but simple life. So I wouldn't change it and I hope to get to stay home for a long long time.
I guess I just am wondering if anyone else struggles with these thoughts. Lol, I guess I'm asking if I'm normal. :)